OK OK

Ok, so it's Satuday night and I HAVEN'T done any of my homework (and this week's amount beat all the previous one's... So why am I blogging ??? Well it's simple actually... I spend Saturday and Sunday stressing, that's all ^.^ Well, I better get snoozing now if I wanna get a head start one tomorrow's EXTREMELY long day (but trust me, I'm gonna procrastinate like always AGAIN) Bye !

Hilarious ain't my life...Family Reading Day...

OK, blogging time !!!

I'm still trying to cope with my homework nowadays, but I'm still lacking behind in my Add Maths...Seriously, I never even do my Add Maths 'cuz it's sooooo troublesome just to think for about an hour...ARGHHHHHH...But for the rest, I think everything is under control...Just fine...Curse you ADD MATHS....

This week was relatively FUNNY....First, something happened in Cikgu Yong's tuition... It was about Ananda's lost exercise book ?

Ananda: OMG, wheres my exercise book ??!!!
Tam Kang: HEHEHE (evil laugh)(trying to attract his attention)
Ananda: OHHH...so you took it...
Tam Kang: Why would you say that ?
Ananda: 'Cuz you laugh...
Everyone: *stares at Ananda*
OPERATION COMPLETE...

And then on Tuesday, ummm....(this is NOT considered as GANGGUAN SEKSUAL) FF's butt....ummmm....kena cucuk by Eugene (I think) toy knife...Then his like FRONT part of the pants got...ummm...lubang....*ahem* Ewww....how can a toy knife create a hole ??? and doesn't it hurt ? I mean it just pierced through his pants....

And then my friend's sister found my friend's CD hot after coming out the CD player...So she wanted to cool it down so she placed it into the fridge....=.= Ummm...she's just 7 years all.

OK that WAS some pretty messed up stuff...Especially the second incident...OH THANK GOD he doesn't read my blog...(come to think of it, he doesn't even on FB much either) Well, he IS addicted to badminton...Saw a cute shuttlecock keychaiun that day during my outing at Center Point and thought it would make a sweet birthday present for him this year, since last year I gave him a box of Kit Katz Bitz...

Overall, I got number 19 in my class even though I fail like 3 subjects, but my Bm is above 55% so I am entitled to a kedudukan in class, YAY, only about 28 people got a kedudukan, well what did I expect ? I AM in 4A....But I feel somewhat unsatisfied 'cuz Crystal got like Number 17 and I got 19, right below me in 20 is Ronny (well, that was close, I don't wanna lose to TOO many people now do I ?)...Boohooo, Ananda got like number 8, I almost PENGSAN !!!! But last year I beat him to number 1, but I guess his superiority in Add MAths and normal Maths has beaten me to the bone...And the Sejarah this time was easy go he couldn't fail so easily...Not to mention, he PASS his Account and his Chemistry (only 17 in my class pass) so I can say he's gotten pretty smart and all...T.T Oh !!! Time to get serious...

Updating my blog in Charissa's house now 'cuz today is her birthday and I brought Crystal along with me, 'cuz we were working on a Microsoft Powerpoint presentation for a contest and it's due next Wednesday...If nothing changes, then there should be about 3 teams (including us) participating in the contest, so I guess we'll win no matter how badly we've done...^.^

Still have like 3 pages of Add Maths and Maths homework, 2 Bio Peka and 1 Physics Peka to work on...not to mention my weekly unfinished homework that I never have a chance to work on...And now some girl is like staring at me....and she keeps saying "HI". Which I think she's trying to get me to greet her...

Oh well, I guess I typed too much again....!!!!!!!!!!!

It's just the beginning

OKOKOK I know I haven't updated my blog in like, more than a month and that's bad because spider webs have gathered up (more than it's suppose to have !)

So I decided not to bore people with words (there aint any pictures either) BOOHOO...I juz dunno what to blog about !!! Maybe that's why I haven't had the MOOD to blog....ARGH, hate parents soooo much, I don't blame my mom when she scolds me 'cuz most of the time it's sorta my fault though she always say stuff like "you kids want me to die faster don't you ?" Then my dad is just sooooo bossyyyyy (seriously...you can see it right after he opens his mouth and talks jibberish... or however you spell it)

I won't be saying much from before or else I'll be submitting a 10 page report on my life...Life still goes on and I STILL (struggling) want to try and keep my self active in the ACTIVITY ANTI-STUDY world...Y'know, any activities that aren't related to my studies...Oh who am I kidding, I do all this to PONtENG YAY !!! That's a good thing right ??? Well, Phoebe keeps walking around nowadays so why can't I ?

My list of activities which I try not to ignore (or regret):
- A special event organized by the KKHS school library and the State Library called Family Reading Day which falls on the beginning of April. I'm in charge of the Bola Minda section, it'll be prepared by the State Library but I have to do decoration and stuff !!! OMG...I usually have someone else to do it for me >.<

-Lots of activities now that I'm AJK in the Interact Club but I'm like, the lowest jawatan one, Assistant Director of Arts and Graphics...a.k.a I've got no creativity...and so on...Let's see, there's the School and CP IU Day to prepare for and that visit to the chocolate factory (Is there gonna be a choco fountain ?).

I wanna be active this year so I won't miss out on anything, besides, I'm gonna get imprisoned next year anyways...As for my grades. I was TOO GLOOMY to remember everyday mark (oh no, getting lazy and am losing all hope T.T) 'cuz I failed my Add Maths (No biggy), Akaun (I can't believe Crystal passed) and my Biology (Couldn't say it was hard but I'm shock)...

Was thinking of taking EST so I can drop Akaun next year and still have something to compensate for it. But there ain't enough students. Ben told me that the teacher say she'll teach if there's at least 20 students who are interested. Hmmm...

Piano exam coming closer too and I still have my entire scale book and my 2nd piece and my oral exam not done yet ! GOSH ! I think I'm gonna fail...No way !!! I need to pass this year so I don't have to take it again next year (Need to concentrate next year)...But I'm learning how to play Fireflies by OwlCity (Actually, I've already finished it but it didn't really sound right, PLUS it's just a short version so I found another one and am printing it) and Lightning's Theme featured on Final Fantasy 13 ^.^

There WAS suppose to be a Green House Perbarisan Party today (better late than EVER) but it was CANCELED !!! 'cuz Cikgu Azmi wasn't free and stuff so we like don't have permission to host it in the school. I had to cancel my Check Stock activity today just to go (Actually my name wasn't on the Check Stock list so when Xin Si told me about the party, I just needed to keep quiet)...Oh well, today was still a satisfied day 'cuz I get to go to the Dental Clinic (no, I'm not using a cheerful tone) I did 2/4 filling today (all Molar) and it seems like my WISDOM TEETH are coming out (when I'm about 18) All the places which have cavity are the exact same place where the wisdom teeth are coming out from. HAIZZZZZZ

The good news is that mom ordered a new camera from a catalog...YAY...

Memories of Nobody

Hmmm...didn't update for the remainder of this 1 weeks holiday...I probably didn't have the "right" mood to blog...Everybody bloggers' gotta have a "mood" to blog....Don't you think so ??? If my blog is devoted to swearing at the other people, of course I would blog when I'm mad at someone...But mine is just a mishmash of STUFF that I do, wanna do, did, regretted, and lastly, died away...

Anyways, my aunt came back from KL and brought this router with her so she (we) can used wireless within the house....GAWD, It's LIKE HEAVEN....I can search for piano sheets while putting the laptop next to my piano....AHHHH, I kept moving my laptop around everyday, first the living room, then the kitchen table, then my mom's room, then ETC.....IT ROCKS...but then again, THAT's WHY I haven't finished my homework !!!! GAKKKKKKK AKAUN !!! That teacher is INSANE !!! GAHHHH *shoots flashy arrows at her then make a meteor fall on her*

I dunno WHY I LUV meteors soooo much....TOO MUCHHHHH FF !!! LAWL, seriously, theres like about 10 types of meteor attacks in Dissidia....I just LUV METEORS, especially when I freeze you THEN shoot TWO meteors at you....That one was fun...

It's now 9 and I decided to do only a SMALL portion of my Akaun homework but only because it's due tomorrow. I'm sooo gonna delay my BM karangan and Add Maths (even though it's also due tomorrow) and Chem 'cuz it's only due on Tuesday....+++++++ My physics tuition homework...OMG Need to draw like 3 graphs then show it to the teacher which uncoincidently is Cikgu LLL *BOOM* She's not that scary, but what can I say ? I haven't seen her in "Bloodlust" mode yet...OH WELL....

It's fine if you forget, it's fine if you can't feel it I've patched up the scrapes in my heart

It's okay if I'm hurt, because I no longer feel the pain Even as I drag my feet along

I can no longer see The self That made a sound and then collapsed

If you just notice the sound of the wind...

It told me to follow these scars Before I'd be crushed by the weight of the world Can you remember it? The sky of tears... That pain has given you protection Because this pain will always protect you

More than the strength of being unhurt, the kindness that cannot hurt Its voice in some ways, seems sad

Just like Unbuttoning a button Our hearts and bodies Were separated

Once again, catch your heart...

It told me to follow these scars Before I'd be crushed by the weight of the world Can you remember it? The sky of tears... That pain has given you protection Because this pain will always protect you

I found it That teary voice There's no mistake It's my own

All of it was for this moment...

I'm sure that from the beginning, you knew I was the only one who wouldn't leave you again

I made you realize, this is a sign for you

That pain has given you protection

I was told to follow these scars And then there wouldn't be anything to be afraid of... Don't forget it, your reason for smiling...

That pain has given you protection That pain has given you protection Because this pain will always protect you

Happy Chinese New Year !

Lol, haven't updated in like 1 whole week (I DID say I will only be updating on weekends didn't I). But technically it's been 2 weeks since last week's post was totally not call blogging, I'd rather call it an emo-post. XP

Anyways, there's LOTS of things to talk about, mainly related to my "misfortune" and stuff...But seriously, if you don't enjoy something, wouldn't you call it a "misfortune", and if that "misfortune" continues for the rest of the year, wouldn't you call it a rather UNFORTUNATE year ??? Duhhh....why do you think I made the name of Season 8 so...I thought I was unlucky, but my misfortune is JUST about to start. This is not my year and absolutely NOT how it feels like to be in Form 4, I WANNA GET SUPER-HIGH and get drunk (just ONCE !!!)...It's new year now, but i feel rather EMO !!! There's just too much (or was it many ?) disappointments in my Form 4 life. I wanna kill myself...

Some how this affects my blogging mood, makes me wanna make this a emo post too T.T Lol, talked to Phoebe that day in the library. Tried to encourage her abit without doing too much sarcasm...'cuz she's been blogging a bit negatively than usual, which made me do an emo-post. (But seriously, we're suffering this much) If you look at things mathematically, a positive blogger like myself mixed with a negative one like Phoebe (NO OFFENCE), you'd get a couple of negative bloggers. But when a 2 negative bloggers come together, you get a couple of positive bloggers. Get what I mean ??? If you're 13 or below, then of course you don't understand...Wait till you're form 2. But I don't think any Form 1 students read my blog. They either just got to know me or don't know me yet ^.^

Anyways, had alot of programs happen for Chinese New Year, reunion dinner, CNY Breakfast and what not, a visit to the temple, And of course, another dinner organized today for no apparent reason...LOL (not to mention me slacking till 4am everyday)...I LUV SLACKING...Those graduated Form 5 blogger's are making me slack together with them...Not to mention, giving me an urge to cook...(Just kidding...But I wanna try the butter breakfast that Melia made T.T SOOOOO BADLY)

I have TONS of homework 'cuz the teachers kinda have some extra empty space in their chests. Clearly they weren't showing any mercy to us Form 4 students, I dunno should I call this a simple to complex start (like what Nana claims) or complex to insane start (I'm pretty sure it's this one though)...It's a BAD thing that the Moral Projek requires the student to write essays non-stop just because they wanna force students to see their future visions for the country though this attempt proved to be futile as it just makes us wanna burn down the board of education even more !!! >: I heard the BOE is going to transfer the principal of Shan Tao (primary) away to another school because the "CLAIM" that he's been "eating" up a lot of money but Cikgu Yong said it's the BOE who's eating non-stop and gaining weight but since Shan Tao didn't have any proof or anything, they can't do much for them...I really hope he doesn't get transferred to a bad school, or even better, DON'T get transferred at all !!! He's really a good principal...(Iz tiz onez of thoz prankz ??? Will the BOE change their mind???)

On the bright side, LJB and Crys came to my house on Saturday morning ! Yay FUN, asked my mom on Thursday and she said I can't add anymore 'cuz my family was having reunion dinner that night so my mom will be busy the whole day and doesn't want more trouble...Three IS a crowd...after all...At first Crys said she was coming at around 10 something 'cuz our Cartoon Network movie starts at around 11 something, so I expected the same from LJB. But he was like, arrived at 9 something...Great, my schedule is TOTALLY OFF...But I did make a mean joke on Fri when Crys asked what time she should come (I just didn't know LJB would FALL for it). She said she'd come around 10, then I said that's what a normal person would do, THEN I continued, "If you come earlier than that, then you've got no life and solely rely on other's activities to stay entertained, like a parasite...If you come later than that, then you'll never be punctual for a party again..." Manatau LJB got here at like 9 something, he said his dad had to go work...Yay, someone actually feel for it (unintended...which makes me even more of a jinx ^.^)

Did some pretty HIGH stuff that day, was planning to push everything into one session then concentrate on homework, but I guess I'm just too addicted to those things....In the end, NO HOMEWORK DONE ^.^...Me and Crys slacked ALOT but LJB used a lot of time to do his homework...So he got 2 pages of Physics done. I don't understand how that could happen, he used like 1 hour and stuff...Oh ya, he was reading the book that book that Sonia borrowed me for no explainable reason. It's called, Questions Teenagers Ask, or something like that. At first, I thought it was more or less like a parody of the Chicken Soup series, but most of it involved s3x and lots of disgusting stuff. When me and Crys were watching TV, I saw LJB downstairs still reading, I was like Ewww...How can you stand reading that...Of course, boys can't resist reading about it can they ??? I know I can't stop laughing ^.^

Just spent another wandering inside my own imaginary world...Clueless as always I guess...=.= Only managed to do a LITTLE bit of my homework...And I haven't even started doing my Akaun which is like....Dozens of pages long....GAKKKKK save me !!! Planning to get a new camera, by the way. My aunt from KL brought her router or whatever and now I can access Internet anywhere as long as my notebook is within this house...I think sampai my neighbour also can reach, but good thing all of this has a password which is freaking long and annoying !!! But one time and I can use forever...I kinda feel sad if she goes back, bringing tech stuff together with her T.T....Oh well, all GOOD things must come to an end...PLUS, all this wireless surfing can't make me concentrate on my homework 'cuz whereva I go, there WILL be internet access...KINDA...

I LUV SIGN...(by FLOW)...It's just soooo awesome (I can't say romantic 'cuz it's rock)...And on Sat morning, I found an even better version which comes with the album...It's a piano mix version...And I LUV IT !!! Even more, since I've listened to the "rock" version too many times already !!! This version is just soooo touching and sad...Made (and still making) me wanna cry T.T 'Cuz it's so romantic and lovely...Give it a TRY...Also in love (just not as much) with "The Price of Freedom", no singing in it, but the fusion of acoustic and electric guitar-ness gives it an awesome edge...Wonder will it sound better with lyrics ??? Could only get the video version of the piano mix 'cuz it's just too exclusive...(Ignore the childish Naruto picture, even though I still read the manga ^=^)

It's not the world which stopped, it's just me.

Seriously having those mid-teen crisis now, homework just keeps pouring in non-stop ! OMG, so troubled, but like I said...After I blog about homework, I feel like my burden is lighter already. But today, I won't talk about how boring my homework is (It kept me from blogging yesterday)...But about my personal issues and desire despite this being a public blog, I'll try to NOT reveal my true feelings here in case some stranger came in and wants to kidnap me.

When in doubt, look into a mirror. What I see, is my face. Closing my eyes, I subsequently pushed the mirror aside. It fell...And broke..

Oh...how mad I am at myself right now. I should've grabbed the chance, I'm no good in anything after all...

I just can't do anything right can I ? I cling to my friends for survival. That is, IF they are my friends. I guess I'm nothing but a parasite.

I feel like I'm at peace now.
But peace is but a shadow of death.
Desperately trying to forget about it's painful past.
Though we hope for promising years.
After shedding a thousand tears.
Yesterday's sorrow constantly nears.

我是一个不能原谅的罪恶。
我不希望被原谅，但被遗忘