Thursday, May 30, 2013

30. letting go

What is my reaction towards the term : Letting Go ?




Yes, the first thing that comes to mind is a song.
(LOL I know I'm weird)
Probably because I haven't gave the idea of letting go much thought.
I know its hard to let someone go.
Especially when you still wanna be with them.
Or if you've been too shy to tell them something.
You get that really unsatisfied feeling.
And a slight touch of regret looming at the back of your head.

"Well you only need the light when its burning low."


Listening to Let Her Go - Passenger

Racing against time.
TK
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Wednesday, May 29, 2013

29. muzic that .xcites

How was my last post ?
The challenge was to use ONLY pictures.
But I can't resist not adding words.
So what do you get ?
Images with quotes in them...
I'm definitely twisting this challenge.
Today's challenge is to share 5 songs that speak to me
or brings back memories.
This should be interesting.
And when I said 'interesting',
I mean
people who already know me should know what song I'd choose.

Number One :


Enchanted - Taylor Swift
Heard this song a hundred of times. Its in my iPod, my old car, my laptop. EVERYWHERE.
I even have the Owl City version.
But when I actually stopped and listened to the lyrics.
I think it makes a lot of sense.
I mean we all feel the same towards the people who like/love.
You like him/her but you're just too shy to confess.
And many more lovey-dovey stuff.
And with the perfect voice to suit the lyrics.


Number Two :


Homeward Bound/Home - Glee Cast
Nothing kicks you more in the guts than listening to this song 
on your phone in the school library on the first day of school 
because you haven't talked to anyone and you have no friends.
All you could do is sit down in a silent corner,
do your "homework" and cry silently 
while thinking of home because of this song.
The sentimental variant of Home was definitely tear-jerking


Number Three :


Sunshine and City Lights - Greyson Chance
I don't really listen to this song anymore.
But it still brings back fond (or terrible) memories when I hear it play,
depends on how you look at it.
I first heard it play on the radio on Hitz.fm
Don't know the name of the song nor the artist.
And then I found out a few days later.
It was a mediocre song to me.
But it was during one of my famous full-day visits to the State Library 
that I suddenly had "cravings" for this song.
It felt as if I needed the song to actually get myself studying.
Ended up walking around the library,
asking every KKHS student I know if they had the song in their phone.
To no avail, of course.
I don't usually do this.
Well, I don't anyone does.
Getting music-cravings and asking random people for it.
I look back,
I laugh.


Number Four :


From the Inside Out - Hillsong
OMG GASP.
A Christian song.
Yea, its true.
These songs bring back precious memories too.
I heard this song in my first "religion" modules in PLKN.
Or was it the second ?
It doesn't really matter.
They were both on the first week of camp.
I was pretty pessimistic about it.
Making friends and socialising, I mean.
So yeah I was pretty down/ emo.
But I wasn't that obvious, obviously.
So, before our module class ended for the night.
The priest/pastor/whatever-you-call-him 
suggested we sing ONE last sing before we leave.
And it was like "Taylor Swift magic".
I know how to sing it.
Wow I surprised myself.
And singing really helped liberate all my inner stress at that time.
Where else was I suppose to sing like Beyonce ?
In the showers ?
(They'd knock down your shower door for that)
Eyes got teary.
Don't know why.
I don't know whether I'm making sense.
But it doesn't matter.
I feel it.


Number Five :


Gangnam Style - PSY
A crowd pleaser !
Me ? Not so much.
But I do admit its great workout music.
That is, 
IF you know the correct dance moves.
Form 6 has unquestionably pushed students beyond their boundaries.
Although my stay was short,
this song symbolises the broadening of MY horizons.
Its one of those YOLO moments in my life.
I look back and I go 
"Ohhh...WHY did I ever do that stupid dance in front of everyone."
but then I'd go
"It WAS a once in a lifetime opportunity. So I guess its alright."
Since its already over,
I can safely say that I have NO regrets 
in doing anything regarding this song.
Prom didn't go so well,
but the process was priceless.
Once again,
I'd like to make a special shout-out to all the people
who pitched in to help make this dance a success.
I LUV U GUYS !


Listening to ALL OF THE ABOVE

Need to get back into shape. BADLY.
TK

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Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Monday, May 27, 2013

27. letter for you.

Dear Readers,
I wish to dedicate this blog post.
Blog post #27 of OVA 1.
To you.
Because it is your repeated visits
to this tiny, humble little blog
that kept is going for years and years.
I know this blog doesn't have a lot to offer.
I don't have a lot to offer.
But still.
Thank You.
Because I'm glad you came.
(get the pun ?)
If not, kill yourself.

And if you thought I wouldn't notice.
I did.
I noticed.
More than 60% of my readers are from the US.
People who just so happened to stumble on my blog ?
Perhaps.
But know this.
YOU are now a stalker.
And you would think the rest comes from Malaysia.
But no.
Unfortunately.
#2 comes from Australia.
With around 5-10% revenue from Malaysia.
(COME ON MALAYSIA !)
That's something I don't see everyday.
Well, actually it is.
Maybe my blogger's counter is broken.
But the ranking has always been that way.

Rest assured,
your identities are kept safe and sound.
I hope you continue supporting stalking this blog.
If that is what you want.
I am more than happy to give up personal information
for the entertainment of digital strangers that I don't even know about.
Yep,
I feel pretty full of myself right now.
Once again,
Thank You.
Your views are highly appreciated here.

Listening to I Will Wait - Mumford and Sons

Still not in Hyperdrive yet.
TK
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Sunday, May 26, 2013

26. discuss please.

Quick quick.
A link.
A link to something good.
Ummm...

http://theoatmeal.com/comics/tesla

How about this ?
It's about Nikola Tesla.
A scientist/inventor.
Most of you who take Physics (such as I)
would know Tesla is the ummm, unit ?
for the magnetic flux density.
Wait, I did get that correct, right ?
Gosh, my Physics is still s*cky...

If you had actually taken the liberty to click on the link.
And read the huge comic panel that appeared.
You would know what I am about to say.

Was Thomas Edison really that bad ?
I really don't know who to trust.
The Internet can be such a deceitful place.
Also, poor Tesla.
Ohhh. That celibacy part really got to me...
Did Tesla really invent all those inventions ?
I find that a little hard to believe.
I mean, of course he didn't INVENT the complete product.
But he laid the foundation for all those inventions.

And how can he live in crackers and milk !?
Hmmm...maybe I should try that sometimes too.
Well, at least it isn't water...
The part where he falls in love with a laser pigeon was funny too.
I really cracked when I read that.
Well, I think Tesla is a really humble and nice man.
Too bad he was psycho.
With the best of intentions, of course.

Overall, I think this was a very interesting read.
A friend of mine was the one who shared it on Facebook.
I thought it was those short comic strips that we'd find.
But no.
This was a very VERY long one.
And it was education and not perverted in the slightest sense.
I am still doubting the validity of it.
But I think it was definitely worth my time.
At least I have a reason to hate Edison now.
Not only is he too mainstream,
he's also a *****.
Cheers !

Exam Preparation Week BEGIN !
Hopefully I can finish the last 5 posts to this Season in time.


Listening to Home - John Meyer Cover (Philip Phillips)

Procrastinating at its best.
TK
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Saturday, May 25, 2013

25. never forgotten.

Like I said in my earlier post.
I take what people say about me very seriously.
That's what contributes to my short-temperness.
You might take it as a joke,
but I MIGHT (and probably will) take it seriously.
Well, not THAT serious,
since I know you ARE just making a joke.
But I remember.
Quite well too.
Good things and bad things.
I'll share one good and one bad.
Fair enough ?

Bad one first.
This was wayyy back in Primary 5/6.
Abby told me.
(Dear Abby, I hope you were telling the truth.)
It was somewhere along the lines of
her teacher considering whether she should teach me.
Or something like that.
At that point, I was pretty flattered.
Since I just got kicked out of the ummm...
how do you call it in English ?
Elite class ?
whatever, you get the idea.

"But then when she ask your previous teachers.
They said I was (in a way) hopeless (or was it just lazy ?)
and she would just be wasting her time."
Soooo... no.
I never spoke to that teacher.
I do admit, I was lazy.
And I probably still am.
But that moment was just pure heartbreaking.
So I cried and cried and cried.
Lol. No Abby.
Not in front of you.
After I left your place.
The revelation did not affect my life in any way.
But that memory would always be echoing at the back of my head.
It was a pure critique (that's what I call it).
My very first critique.
It was not suppose to reach my ears.
And that's why it was so "valuable" to me.
It's what people (my ex-teachers) truly thought of me,
without putting my feelings into consideration.
After all, I was never suppose to hear about this.
Of course, I still question the validity of what Abby told me.
Abby, were you just lying ?
Because I took it quite seriously.
Not that I'm doubting you or anything.
But how did you know about it ?
Did she tell the whole class ?
Because I'm getting the kind of vibe that she did.

Ok enough negatives.
Let's talk about the positives for now.
I've been trying to turn my life around since I started studying here.
When I said turning it around.
I mean literally.
I have no social life no more.
But most importantly,
I actually TRY to study and do my homework.
I also have this cute (ECO-FRIENDLY) notebook that says
"Turn Over A New Leaf".
Just one of the MANY MANY MANY reminders I gave myself to
actually get up and do something meaningful with my life.
I uploaded a picture of it before on this blog.
But I'm too lazy to track it down.
I've been doing good so far.
With the occasional hum-bragging.
It's awesome because everyone here can't tell.
My grades are (were ?) pretty good at the moment.
Last term I mean.

And my English teacher told me,
"Well, you can tell your parents I am very proud to have you as my student."
Crowning Moment of Awesome !
She proceeded to explain about how students with the top score in the subject
would be given a special award at the end of the year or something like that.
The best part was,
she was explaining it to me in such a way that I will actually be the one who goes on stage.
Ahhhh.....
That moment really went to my head.
I got dizzy.
LOL.
I think that's really good motivation.
I WANT THAT AWARD.
And there's only around 20-30 people standing in my way.
That's quite a lot.
Can't let my guard down now, can I ?
Of course not !
Come on TK !
FIGHTING !!! (I don't know why people keep saying this...)


Listening to The Yaschas Massif - Final Fantasy XIII OST

36 hours a Day.
TK
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24. baddddddd

I love talking about my flaws.
It makes me look ever so humble =3
And the best part is,
I have lots of flaws.
So I'll never run out...
But I'll only need 3 today.
So three will do.
(This is not done in chronological order)

#1 would be my short temper-ness.
Its what I hate the most.
I'm like super sensitive.
And most of the time,
I'm aware of it.
I get moody really easily,
but I know I'm overreacting
so I force myself to cool down.
And that's the only reason why I'm not a walking stick with PMS.
Sometimes I just lose it,
especially if they're my parents.
Boo hoo hoo, bad son mentality coming back.
And my parents noticed this bad trait of mine too.
Mom even bought a book of stories of short tempered characters for me.
I never read it.
Too stubborn.
Its in my blood.
And now I'm making excuses again.

#2 is un-independency.
Yes, I am not independent.
I want to, I really do.
But I'm just too lazy.
And back to #1,
I am too stubborn to take a little training and advice
without reaching max. capacity and blowing up.
I really hate this part of me.
Well, I hate all parts.
But this is the more annoying part.
I'm sure if I'm thrown into the wilderness and left to fend for myself,
I would learn how to take care of myself.
But Mom and Dad don't trust me enough
to let me do things on my own.
Not that I'm blaming them or anything.
Just the guilt.
Not to mention I'm pretty useless in most situations.
I'm like a Psyduck.

And finally, #3 : Procrastinator.
This is something I'm sure everyone can relate to.
We all procrastinate about one thing or another.
For those who know me,
you'd know how much I LOVE procrastinating.
My homework load suffers a lot because of this.
Sometimes I find something productive to do instead of homework.
I call this "productive procrastination".
The fact that I'm doing something else that is ALSO productive
makes me less guilty about procrastinating my work,
whatever it might be.
Setting limitations and restrictions around my life seems to be working quite well for now.
I can keep this procrastinating nature of mine in check.
But for how long ?

Think about it =D

Listening to The Way of Memories - Shihoko Hirata

TGIF.
TK
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